addition to my previous post >

oh and btw do go after psychiatrists to help you if you get feelings like what you talked about suicidal .. please do .. again if you can fight the mental side that half the battle won ...
lets put it this way .. if you would take away my modelbuilding , passion for motorcycles / cars , my wife and son , my house
i'd rather be dead also .. like those are the things that keep me going

thanks a lot for yur post Rich, i had no clue you had such thing, and it made me feel a lot better to know that at least doctors diagnosed me with something, cause not knowing what i had like this past two months was completely shit, so i cant even imagine how it is to live with something wrong that you dont even know what it is

yes i know .. for 5 years i have been to hospitals and got tests and never did they find it ..

but.... few months back i saw a tv program and the girl decribed a condition she had and i was like whaaat
so i googled it and well it was like that must be it ..
so scary similair , and a month back i was driving in my bigrig when i got all dizzy and carefully drove back parked it and went to the doctor ...
turned out my blood pressure was scary low and what did i see when i googled the condition > low blood pressure ... also before i read the stuff about that condition i always called the paint on my skin like ...we call it prikkeldraad (barbwire) like when your young and you twist somebodys skin both hands the other way round .. so it hurts ..
and that was described there like that ,, so i was like whow ...
also it aid that test on musscles where they stick needles in your musscles .. those test should be negative (all good) and mine where .. there are more things i found similair to what i experience

now i have loads of print outs and the condition is hard to determain and a neurologist could easely not think of that ..
in holland there is a academic hospital wich specialized in that relativly new and unknown condition .. so i'm still gadering information and want to try and make a apointment ...
not in a hurry because all those tests the past years cost me a lot of money , yes i'm well insured but every year you have like a own risk fee .. petrol ...

btw .. i could have gotton pain killers ... but they all are stuff where you are not allowed to drive with .. and well i'm a truckdriver .. so .......

this is what i found and what i believe must be it >

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Small_fiber_peripheral_neuropathy



btw hugo so many people have shit in their lives and a lot of people dont ... show / cant see it ...


again m8 keep your spirit up ... try ..do it and if that fails talk to the professionals !

thats a very weird disease Rich, must be really hard

thanks for the message

Amigo, fiquei triste com este post. É uma pena que tenhas de passar por isto, nem consigo imaginar o que estás a sentir neste momento, ainda para mais longe da tua família. Já sabes que se precisares de falar e desabafar manda uma mensagem no chat. Qualquer coisa, podes chatear à vontade.

Aquele abraço e vais ver que as coisas vão melhorar, cabeça erguida. És o maior.

Thanks a lot for your kind words

Boas, não te conheço, mas não fico indiferente ao teu caso.
É daquelas situações mesmo do tipo FODA SE este tipo de situações pode mesmo acontecer a qq um!! Com certeza tens alguem para te dar a maior força... Rapaz, pensar em ir para o outro lado!?!?!?!? Deixa te disso, tens mto para viver, tens imensas qualidades demonstradas por aqui e não só. E teras mto mais para mostrar.
As melhoras, força e qq coisa tb estou aqui para te apoiar.

Cumps.

thank you for your message obrigado

Be strong Hugo... Remember you can talk to us on the forum every time you want to. You're lucky that you have a person who loves and supports you. And don't lose the sense of humor, stupid and nosense jokes will help you not to think about problems See you at the next chop right here!

Makes my now week-long almost-continuously aching shoulder feel so little and easy... I really can't begin to imagine what you must be going through in your mind.

But I sincerely hope you can learn to live with it.

Embrace the good days and fight through the bad ones.